Randy’s blog

What personality trait has gotten you in the most trouble? 

I am a lighthearted easy going person. Cracking jokes and pulling pranks has pissed many off.

As you may of guessed already I go by the name Randy. It is not my legal name yet, but thats what I plan on changing my name to. Unfortantly I was born with an intersexed condition. Currently no one knows about it. I have tried telling my mother and grandmother but they don't understand and are in denial. They have ignored it my whole life. My mother wanted a daughter so she raised me as one. Before I was born she thought I was going to be a boy. Thats what the doctors told her when they ultrasound her. Unfortantly even though I have the brain of a guy and secondary male characteristics bu my gentalis are much more female then male. I am rather androgynous looking. Some may lump me in the transgender label because of that. For the longest time I thought I was in that category too. Then I started to piece together things I had over heard through out my life. My grandmother is someone who tends to let things slip. There have been family members who were intersexed. I have no relationship with my father. My was younger then me(18) when she got pregnant. To the best of my knowledge we never met.  My grandmother was friends with my fathers mom. She was often confused for a guy and we have a lot of common. She had aquariums thought her house and so do I. I plan to be an aquatic biologist. I have only met the people on my mothers side and the woman are hairless. I have loads of hair. I have to shave my chest and stomach. My grandmother said my dads mom was hairy too. I wish I could have "came out" about this long a go but I could not. Mother is in complete denial and told me years ago that If I did anything to correct this that she would sever ties with me. When I turned 18 I wanted to start medically fixing this but could not. I go to a Christian school and they think  that because God does not make mistakes people like me don't really exist. They would kick me out for being possessed by demons or something. I am graduating on  May 30th, after that I can start taking control of my life. I am currently taking driving lessons so I can get my license and start visiting the doctors that I need to see. I decided to make a blog because I really don't have others to talk to about my problems. I can't disclose to friends because they are all from that stupid Christian school. I know exactly how they would treat me after hearing them talk about Thomas Beatie. If you already knew me in person I hope you aren't too freaked out about this. It does not change who I am at all. Even if you view me differently now my my personality and who I am as a person has not changed.